My Thoughts...
You know those days where you just don't give a fuck anymore? Well, I'm getting there. Just some things I need to get out of the way..
I hate how I look. I hate how 80% of the day I feel like I look ugly. I hate how I somehow built up this persona of me being this so called "hardcore bitch" that doesn't give a shit about anyone, no..I just have trust issues. I hate when I walk through the halls of my school and see these cute couples holding hands and enjoying each other and I don't have that because I am incapable of being in a relationship that will surpass a month and people know that yet they come to me for relationship advice. I hate how everyone doesn't want anything to do with me. I hate how I'm gullible enough to go out with someone that in the end hurt me even if he didn't mean that much to me or if it wasn't that big, it still hurt. I hate how people call me intimidating..truth is, I just don't know what to do. I hate how I hurt the one person who actually "loved" me and is now dating someone else that isn't as good as me. I hate how I hurt the people who liked me for me and yet I always end up pushing them away and in the end, regretting it later on. I hate how I can be easily taken advantage off, I know that I am but I don't do anything about it. The worst part, I hate myself because I know everything that goes on in my life yet I try to change myself for those people that will never understand me nor will I talk to them after I finish high school. Sometimes I wish I could disappear and be reincarnated into a bird or something so I can fly away from this place and forget everything I've regretted. Maybe then will I be able to enjoy myself...




I wish I could find someone that could tell me I look beautiful and mean it but this is reality and not a dream. Lets sleep and make the best out of the next days. 
"Only you can build yourself up, and with that, you can also tear yourself down.<3 " - Uyen Vu